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When my father turned nineteen
his father died and no one told him 
the truth of dying:

the ocean is for sale today 
and you cannot buy it.

In their corner store, Kosher for Passover 
labels arrived unaccompanied 
by rabbis’ actual prayers 

duplicity sticking to each can 
of mandarins, each vessel of sour pickles. 

The silences could drown a boy, 
could slay him 
down to a slip of breath— 

language drifting between Yiddish and English—
Shabbat candles the only brightness 

he could rely on. Stay bright, 
stay bright, he might have prayed 
but probably not. 

Perhaps his mind played the periodic tables
or bicycled down tenement avenues.

Here is what he learned: 
to perfect invisibility, to become a statue—
an “American” like Buffalo Bill 

or the Kennedys. I think of the tides
that grew him—a man with a talent

for happiness and his wife alive in misery. 
The plush and spin of their marriage; the green tongue
never watered enough. Angel wing begonias

my father grew in pots of vermiculite—no dirt
allowed in my mother’s house, no ants. What made

him do it? Every year as winter dust tempered
the sun porch he transplanted the starts upstairs, 
and attic bound they rested, dormant. Today, 

my father, dead twenty years, would be ninety-three. It’s hard
to believe it. Were you his favorite? my father’s best friend 

asked as the funeral broke up. And so I took it in
the same way I overheard a student on campus
pleading with his friend, Do I smell of pancake batter? 

asking as if he really needed to know. So little
it takes to swim beyond the small talk and investigate

the oceanic floor. The coral reefs and lost sunglasses,
the obscured treasures of feeling and forms 
of intimacy. Only once did my father tell me 

I love you. That human line of language, three 
syllables and eight letters with two spaces in between.

It’s the in-between where I live now. The 
middle of middle age where I paint my house
the dove blue-gray of Allston Street, to invite back 

the person who fathered me, the branched
tributaries in blossom on his birthday, May 20,
where I will return to him beyond language. 

My ghost self and his finally speaking. 

 

Susan Rich’s fifth book of poetry, Gallery of Postcards and Maps: New and Selected Poems is forthcoming from Salmon Press. Her other books include Cloud Pharmacy and The Alchemist’s Kitchen (both from White Pine). She has received an Artist Trust Fellowship, Fulbright Fellowship to South Africa, and a PEN USA Award.


The Image archive is supported in part by an award from the National Endowment for the Arts.

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