______I am soft sift
______In an hourglass
Against the darkening winterplum sky,
a lone contrail whitens—loose thread, untufted
cotton. A perfect inverse of me:
of my belly taut, halved by a slurred gray line.
Linea nigra, the doctor says, my belly button’s
new ashen tail a ghostly likeness of the cut cord
that once bound me to my mother.
These days I am a solstice, a season begun
in your germinal dark. Measure me now
in months, in so many weeks, all the streams
of my body downrivering
into the estuary that is you.
________________________That is you—
there, the tick of your limbs, a second hand,
a second hand, fingers whorled and filling
with bone, numbered one by one,
as are your days in that luminous book.
Nameless one, I know you in numbers.
Your parts, your gathering weeks, the 145
of your heart. The thrum of kicks
in an hour is as many as the sparrows
that flit in the bare snarl of vine and hedge,
as many as the houses that line our street,
my trips to the bathroom in the night.
I think, in those small, bleary hours,
of the hand that pens the book of our days,
turns the page. Nameless one, only once more
will you be numberless, when you begin again
at zero. Day you quicken toward, cold sear
of light, fugue of voices. You’ll be cut
like yarn from the skein, your skin unshined
of blood, your heels grasped and slapped.
Cry, numberless one—for now you are laid
upon the scale, the 0.0 you’ll shatter,
your life weighed against a feather,
_______________________________already counted up.