Smoke
By Essay Issue 121
I think of my chest like the inside of a grand piano, each key triggering an invisible response in the instrument’s body, releasing some build of pressure within an anatomy of hammers and strings. I think about writing. It’s always a gamble to live life without writing everything down in real time—the fear of what will be forgotten haunted by anxiety over what’s already been lost. A train of inkblots surfaces behind my eyes and disappears just as quickly, like music. I try to resist reaching for metaphors, attaching any images or words that would put distance between myself and the moment as it’s happening. I try not to feel like a failure.
Read MoreMy Father Tells Me about His Dreams
By Poetry Issue 121
Sometimes he is back in our house in Anaheim, / sometimes with his family in Taiwan.
Read MoreIn the Studio
By Visual Art Issue 121
Drawing from the source directly is the practice that I call art.
Read MoreAubade with Spontaneous Combustion
By Poetry Issue 121
I’m not even dressed before the pope
asks me for a lifelong yes.
The Woman in the House
By Visual Art Issue 121
We often imagine the act of reading as one of pure intellect, but it has a physical dimension—paper, ink, hands that turn pages, eyes that take in light. By making the “consumption” of the text literal and embodied, almost uncomfortably visceral, I hoped to gesture toward the theological implications of our embodied state: we read with both our minds and bodies because we are bodily and ghostly, matter and spirit.
Read MorePork & Cigarettes (circa 1987)
By Poetry Issue 121
The cashier read it and then handed me,
a ten-year-old boy, a pack of smokes.
For the Circumcision of a Small City
By Poetry Issue 121
Simeon and Levi went alone among the moaning
streets—think of it: every Canaanite man draped,
groins leaking through their bindings, gangrene
coming for some.
Read MoreAbandoned Love Sonnet #8
By Poetry Issue 121
the history of trees opens with a long stretch
of uninteresting happiness.
The Portion and the Sword
By Essay Issue 121
Further down is the Other Brown House. It’s where a man bled his family to death, one by one, with a knife.
Read MoreOrigin Story: The Future
By Poetry Issue 121
I was not allowed inside, so I pressed my
palm to the glass; my lifeline, written over
by lattice.